Suzanne's Secret Hideaway - March 07 posts

Spring storms seem to be hitting a lot of places with a vengance. We had a pretty big one a few days ago. Lightening, thunder, hail, rain, tornado. At least the tornado didn't come too close - it was about 30 miles away. It looks like we are in for more storms in the next week. One good thing - my flowers are blooming, lol. I have some seeds I want to try and plant. I love flowers but do not have a green thumb. I would love to have fresh flowers everyday. I hope the lilac bushes bloom good this year - I usually bring them inside constantly until they die. We aren't going to have a garden this year - it was too much last year and it is supposed to be the hottest summer on record here - everything will fry - the pumpkins took over the garden last year, the corn, watermelon, zucchini and beans never grew. Tomatoes did ok - hopefully the strawberries come out good this year. We started the plants inside last spring - they sprouted so good - I was so sad nothing grew. I think I might try a tomato plant in a big pot. I love fresh tomatoes. I want some zucchini too - will have to see. I want a flower garden just for cutting to bring inside. Maybe I will have some luck with those seeds.

I have been having trouble sleeping, even before I got my now present cold. I am so tired, but can't seem to fall asleep. I hate it when that happens. Here is my Friday Fun.

:: FUBAR Friday ::

NOTE: FUBAR is an oft-used Army term meaning “F*&^ed Up Beyond All Recognition, i.e., my computer!

1. Have you ever gotten yourself in a situation that seemed to be completely FUBAR? What did you do?
2. In the face of FUBAR situations, do you find yourself frustrated beyond your limits, or are you calm and cool? Frustrated, but I don't flip out - I am somewhat calm - maybe saying some not so nice words - sometimes giving into tears.
3. If your computer became FUBAR, do you think you would be lost without it? I know I would. About three and a half years ago lighening took out a tv, vcr/dvd player, my computer and our central air conditioning. I freaked - a new computer was picked up very quickly, lol
4. What inanimate thing in your life (computer, TV, radio, microwave, curling iron, etc.) would you be lost without? Computer, maybe tv.

I am off - have to get the kids to the bus and get back to bed. Hopefully to sleep. I hope you have a wonderful weekend.

I haven't been online for 4 days! Ughhh - I will forever be behind. I have been feeling a little under the weather. I think it might just be a little bug. I feel a little better today. If I get sick, it's usually just a bad cold, bronchitis or something. This seemed more like a little touch of flu and wiped me out. Everytime the baby slept so did I. Let just say we weren't up much all weekend, lol. No housework got done either, except what was necessary. I am just wiped out. I really would love to go back to bed. Might have to do that when Ariana takes a nap. I have so much to do, but I just don't care!

Kia sent me this special gift last week. Thank you so much! It's to celebrate my quitting smoking - you can see it below! Thanks also to Cris, Stephanie, Susan, Kellie, and Suzanne for all the spring and Easter gifts. I hope to get them up as soon as I can.

I planned on visiting everyone now, but I am feeling really yucky again. I better go. Sorry I haven't been by...

I am still smoke free as of March 8!!! There are times when I was so tempted to run to the gas station and buy a pack of cigarettes. When we went to my parent's house

for

, the smell of the smoke made me feel sick.

Ariana has been doing her sleeping little, staying up forever thing. I look like heck and feel like it too. I am so tired. I should be in bed and I am going in a minute. I haven't had a chance to visit anyone - I hope to tomorrow. I just haven't had time or energy. I did redecorate and that took forever. Kellie's graphics are too fun and I just couldn't decide on what to use.

The weather has been crazy - it was so warm - 80 degrees one day, then 50s the next. It's supposed to be 74 tomorrow with storms in the afternoon. I am so glad it's spring though. My favorite time of the year aside from fall. I better go. Thanks Kellie, Cris and Susan for the goodies. I am going to send mine out soon. See you later!!

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I am smoke free as of March 8!!! I am so shocked that it has been this easy. That medication is a miracle drug and I will recommend it to anyone who wants to quit smoking. I thought it would be terrible going through the withdrawl, but to be honest, I feel really good. I get the occasional moment where I think, a cigarette would be so good right now, but it's not unbearable and the craving goes away. The real test will be tonight. We go to my parent's house for and they both smoke. I am nervous about that. The saddest thing is, not one person in my house seems to have noticed I quit!! The four people who hounded me and made me upset about it for a long, long time haven't said one word!!!!! On Thursday and Friday the kids didn't have school. Thursday they all were going to spend the night and my parent's house. I took them in the afternoon to visit my Grandmother at the nursing home and they would go with my Mom from there. My Mom said something and the kids said "Mom, you quit smoking?" My husband hasn't said one single word. Does he even notice? Is he just not saying anything? I am not saying one word. I want to see how long it takes til he says something, unless the kids blow it first. Shows how much anyone pays attention to me at home, . I am going to call one of the car dealerships Monday to see what it would cost to detail my so I can get all the smoke yuckiness out of it. Friday, Ariana and I went with my hubby to a Bull Sale he was going to with my . I told you I lead an exciting life! His Dad has a farm/ranch. Afterwards they had some stuff to do, so Ariana and I went to that evil store - Super Wal-Mart to pick up a few . I also wanted to get her a few clothing items. I have tons of Winter, Fall, Summer clothes that people gave us as gifts, that were Adelina's, and those I picked up at garage sales. The clothes we don't have much of are for Spring time. I thought I could get a few odds and ends until I find what I really want. They had these cute light pants for $3 - cheap! We got three pairs and a little purple shirt with lace edging at the neck. I need to go to JcPenney and look for a few shirts. We don't have a lot of places to here in the boondocks. I will probably have to order online. After that, we went to my and to show Ariana all the horses and cows. She loved it. Then Saturday night we went back to my and for . Today I have been doing some updating on my site, , a little bit of and being lazy. I need to get off of here, get Ariana down for a nap, get a shower, do more laundry. I don't want to! I better go though so I can hopefully come back and do some blog hopping. Aren't all these little graphics cute? Kellie makes the neatest graphics. Go visit her site! See you later!!

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Yes, it's me. I haven't posted in a while. I can't ever figure out where the time goes except bye-bye. I have been busy with a million different things. I have made some pages for the Original Graphic Lovers group - Click here to see and if you want to join, click here. I have also made some pages for Woman's Day - click here. I feel so stupid - I sent the link out for those pages and hadn't uploaded the final versions and it looked horrible. I am sure the ladies that looked thought I was out of my mind. Anyway, they are all done and you can pick up gifts from me there. I have also been working on other pages and some graphics. The naughty puppy I have been writing about really has me wanting to scream. Rob has continuously done work to the dog pen outside and the dog keeps getting out. We have hooked him to a long dog cable - it has a stake to go into the ground and you hook it to the collar and they have a lot of room to run, but can't leave the yard. Well, the dog gets off of it! You wouldn't believe how many repairs and ideas we have tried and that dog just won't stay put. I will not have him inside anymore. It's too much. I can't get him potty trained and the floor is pretty well ruined - even after steam cleaning it from all his accidents, etc. He is to be a hunting dog and had never been in a house until we got him. Then, the cats. One of them has taken to urinating on the rug in front of my washer and dryer and I have stepped in it twice!! I have cleaned it, disinfected it. I don't know what else to do. I really am tired of all of this baloney. I don't think anyone online knows, but I am unfortunately a smoker. I have tried to quit in the past, but for reasons I don't feel like going into, it didn't work. Well, I am trying again, but not sure I can do it. I am taking Chantix and it's supposed to be great for this. I was doing pretty good - you are to quit smoking 7-8 days after taking the medication. As the day come closer - TOMORROW!!!! I am having a terrible time. I am scared to death I will gain tons of weight. Three years ago I lost 75 pounds and am just a couple of pounds over the weight I was after that loss since having the baby, so I am really proud of myself. I am scared to death of gaining that back. I have been smoking since high school. I know I need to quit - I'm sure once I get over the initial I HAVE TO HAVE ONE stage I will be ok, other than eating everything in sight. Things have been stressful and that's the first thing I want to do - light up - at those times. My parents both smoke and it will be really hard to be around them as they both smoke a lot. I know half of it is in my head and the other half is an addiction, but I am having a willpower struggle, lol. I want to quit for four reasons - My kids, My husband, Myself and Money. The medication has a great get quit program online and they give you support through it. You can have them email you or call. Maybe I should start having them call. I am freaking out right now. Sorry for blabbing on. Wish me luck. I better go. So much to do, so little time.

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